Your just a constant reminder of everything I can never have.

2011-06-08T09:57:00.000-07:00

Happy 1st monthsaryyy ♥

You see ; you're rlly impt to me . i won't let anybody hurt you , especially me , if i could . Create that lil smile on your face , every morning you wake up . Th one who cheers you up w my stupid lame childish methods .

Yes, i have brother(s) whom im rlly close to . Did you notice every friend ; ex ; sister ;brother and gan, there’s a (s) behind it? Yes. But i only have a boyfriend . And that’s you . ♥
Only 1. I don’t know if 'm th only girl in your life . Yeah, but i know you’re my only babyboy , no one else :D Hahahaha , ♥

you may not be the best thing that has ever happen to me , but im sure one day you'll be . i wished th word ; "had" , "used to" never comes between us , dont ever want all this to become past tense . you became like my glue , and without you , i'll be nothing but broken pieces .

So if you’re alone, i’ll be your shadow. If you want to cry, i’ll be your tissue. If you want a hug, i’ll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, i’ll be your smile and laughter.

we still have many months to go from here yea ? ♥ Stop being so cute baby .

Baby i got something fr you , give me one more week okay ? ♥ Better cry upon seeing it ! Hehe cause this is so touching . :D

SLOWLY READ , YOU CONFIRM COMPLAINING NAOZ :@

&&& ILOVEYOUVERYMUCH .

2011-05-29T07:21:00.000-07:00

Sudden urge t blog again . ^__^
Moods gg up and down . Rlly down this few days .

It amazes me how people who are going through the worst things.. can still somehow manage to smile. Dearest boy, I got so much things to say to you, but all I can say now is that, I miss you........ alot.
I admit i'm tired , but all i want is for you t know how much i feel for you .

Babyboy ; 'm rlly sorry :( but only if i had th words to express how 'm feeling nao , how much i love you , i wouldn't be here hesistating so much . I know its not accidental that i 'somehow' end up on your facebook profile , looking thru th texts you've sent , stay up all night thinking about you . Th last thing i want t see is , you leaving me . Dont angry alrd , 不要生气 le :'(

But all i wna say is ;

♥

2011-02-08T23:33:00.000-08:00

Monday ; went t school .
Tuesday ; see doctor . Got admitted t A and E , did all th blood tests , drip , x-ray :( and some fcker didn't wna accompany go .
Wednesday ;as usual , meetup my dearest shuting ♥ ♥ . And some others , darlingboy bryan youseng terrence alex , at gnc. Went separate ways . went t northpoint , eat , heart t heart talks w shuting .
Thurdays ; went down school outside awhile . went off , then trained t bukit batok .
Today ; accompany ♥ t hospital .
I may regret the way we ended but I will never regret what we had.

2011-02-05T18:45:00.000-08:00

♥♥♥

To those dogs out there ; your words cant affect me , get barking out there . Try harder :B

Don't apologize for it , cause the truth is you will break my heart again .

2011-01-29T07:22:00.000-08:00

(insertname)
you left , thats when i know , i fell in luv w' you w/o knowing .
you came back , and left .
i hate you treating me like this , but when I was holding on, all you did was let go.
you said you cried that day . i felt twice th pain . (K)

P/S: I love you. Xoxo.

2011-01-18T03:35:00.000-08:00

So long never meet this girlgirl on top ald *misses

Met gwyneth yesterdayy./♥ love her so muchh & my tinaa also .

Life not reallybitch ,

This year studying rly hard , stressss . gg smooth , past memories start flowing back , tears starting dropping . So much words left unsaid , only memories . Haisss :'( Quarrelling w family is never ending sometimes . I started thinking how i got thru last year , rly tough journey . Some of them gg thru w me those times , left ald . But i still appreciate everything , those heart t heart talks , those times we drink and cry together . Okaaay , dont wna be some emo

rmb , 17months and 4days ago 0100 , you're mine .

some people are fated to meet each other, but not destined to be together...
Treasure what you have... Time is too slow for those who wait; Too swift for those who fear; Too long for those who grief; Too short for those who rejoice; But for those who love... Time is Eternity. For all you out there with someone special in your heart, cherish that person, cherish every moment that you spend together that special someone, for in life, anything can happen anytime. You may painfully regret, only to realise that it is too late.

some memories cant be forgotten , just by a goodbye

2011-01-15T07:44:00.000-08:00

ILOVEYOU , yes i do .

I only wished , you will be more understanding , trust me . Give me more time . If we rly get tgt , i never want it t end like how it always does . i really hope , you'll let go of th past . Even if you found out that you dont really love me , 'm alright . as long as you're happy .

If you really cared , you wont be doing all this -___-

withluvs , charissa♥

If i had knew , i wouldn't be here crying

2011-01-14T06:27:00.000-08:00

I only wished , you're mine .

AGAIN .

what love is

2011-01-09T01:32:00.000-08:00

Maybe that's what love is, not hating someone when you have every reason to. ^.^
And yes , you're worth every risk . ♥

Meeting you was fate , becoming your friend was a choice ;

2010-12-30T08:03:00.000-08:00

but falling in love with you was beyond my control . ♥

School starting soon ;

have t wake up way much earlier then nao :/ end up confirm skip school againz

Noooo , gna start stop playing and study .

Promised daddy and mummy t finish this last year properly first !

6th to 10th dec ,

went t hongkonggg and shenzhen . Not gna upload th other pictures , due t the cold weather , my face really looked horrible .

Didnt get t take much pictures at disneyland , cause we're rushing :/ wasted .

Walked down streets getting presents . But some we're taken away in customs .

Total disappointment .

Yeahhh , i haven finished my shoppinggg :( 4 more days left !

Met up w tina , gwyneth , jonathan , tiffany , chunji , guokai , ahliang , tata , ah de , like finally .

And i luv my daddyyy so much ♥

charissa bvlgari's

2010-11-24T09:44:00.000-08:00

i'm just gna be tht happy lil girl , i used t be , i wna be nao w/o any stupid troubles .

Every betrayal , does hurt . But its not worth crying for something tht 'll never come back right ?

k3k3k3

Sometimes idk wdf 'm doing either , but whatever tht happens , we cause it by ourself right ?

I have t admit , till nao , i still luv tht only one person , from today's date 251110 , its been 1year 2months 11days already . first and last time , i really loved . None made me feel th same , until you . But we're over , broke up 5 months ago , waiting for you up till nao .

Luv is just a language 'll never learn t spell :) ♥

i dont ask for it anw , sisters and brothers are my focus naoz .

& hey , 'm happy k , everytime you see me 'll be smiling ,laughing . Tired of the life w endless crying . (Y)

Inks♥

2010-11-12T23:35:00.000-08:00

08th and 9th november ;
Morning , find laurence then joachim came . Go 233 eat , then go northpoint find th others . Left early , t ahsheng's house . Left , go sankar shop accompany him awhile talk cock.
met up w shuting after so so long . Went t 2tou t accompany her dye hair . In th end , never dye . walked over t northpoint , then t 747 . Then , sat down , smoke smoke talk talk , camwhoreee ♥./

10th november ;

Sheng's house , i forget the rest .

11th november ;

Morning , ahsheng's house till 3plus > cabbed down t amk > came back t meet shuting go rounding :) ton.

12 november ;

mr motor brought more ppl down , then bike down t changi . kena screened . went back t 8tou , screened again . Around 4am . Cabbed down t geylang t find fabian . walk walk around , eat smoke . went back t yck tgt . Ah hoong came t pick me , so niceeee , go friend's house sleep afew hours . woke up , met kendrick . Bring me go rounds :) Picked me up at friend house > my house> bathed changed > go lighthouse . Blasted music . Then home , took my stuffs , money all that , changed . wait for yannzhen and shuting t prepare .

Left house , buy cigg , went t 7eleven wait for them . Saw jave'brother :) went t smoke w him and his girlf , talk cock . supa funny , swear . Shuting came , then yannzhen . Go over t 214 , talk smoke . Then some ppl came down also . Abit late le , she left w them go pub . Blah blah , & im home naoz . Gg leave house go bugis .

kkthxbye

even if i cant be happy , i want you t be happy th happiest ./♥

without makeup

2010-11-08T19:29:00.000-08:00

love no bastard , fear no bitch

2010-10-31T08:11:00.000-07:00

Meeting up people more often this period , walking around , making new friends and partying so much . This year rly is one waste .

I didn't study , i keep doing the wrong things making my parents worry , disappointed and angry , even people around 're affected . One tongue piercing , my suck cock attitude . This year hengheng promote :)anot hoseh liao !

So many things happen , but im still Charissaaaa :B all the suck cock jerks , -'- this is for you . But im still the happy crazy me , using my time on ppl who're worth it. whatever past , is past.
FULLSTOP AINT COMING BACK . And some dumb fck , want cheat on girlf , dk how more clever . Kna exposed all the lj excuses come out-.-LOL!

my heart still full of question marks;
what did i do so wrong to make you change ??
friends leave after they found someone better?:/
skipskipskip

Holidays packed;
17-19 november , Bintan
6-10 december , Hongkong

Still have un-planed outing w lovelies,
Shuting , jinger , ahsheng and co , wenhao , jesslyn beibei , Andrew , elisa and co , guokai and co , sankar yongshun and co.

ineedmoretime .

Decided t fckin blog for someoneee ♥

2010-10-18T14:29:00.000-07:00

Last friday ; metup shuting for our normal h2htalks ♥

went t 1tou , 2tou ,3tou ,4tou ,6tou then 9tou t find sankar , ahwei and the others . Went home after , didnt went jetty w them.

Saturday; went 213 . Met laurence , joachim ,Apichet,yongliang and others . played flour , egg . Cause of shuting and another girl's bd . fckin fun . Bathed - changed . Went back 213 , then t northpoint for dinner , back t 213 . some people , yongshun ,issac , came down . TALKTALKHOME.

Sunday ; stuck @ home -.- Told joachim i'll meet him . but didn't:)

Monday ; skipped school . Slept all th way till 12 , damm song . Met jonathan , after , went 213 find yongshun , laurence and guokai came down. Dinner , sit bike home .

ps; talking t weisheng naoz. Half an hour more t school. i haven started sleeping.

&&& this muthafuckin date i'll never forget -'-

kkthxbai

ilovemyfreakinglifewithoutyou,ididn'tknowimissedoutsomuch♥

2010-09-07T10:00:00.000-07:00

Dear heart sorry for the major breakdown . imy :'(

Breakdown yesterday :/

Skipped school on thursday and friday .

Gna drop to na soon , hell yeah .

Met up w dearest shuting'baobao afewdays back:) h2h talks , slacking , walking around .

Slack w xsky'kor , jeffrey ,'angkongsiao' and the others . Laugh like hell about the angkong siao joke.

Yesterday ;

went t find desmond , zhiliang , jesslyn'baobei , qinsheng , chunwei and the others :)

Talked t jesslyn , running about queensway shopping centre , got lost ! LOLL while the others do their tattoo . So much laughter , qinsheng fcking funneh , swear ! :) After , trained back yishun .

Meet Nigel , bryan , david . Came hanxiang , dennis , eric , ricky and another girl w drinks^^

Left ; 12 home .

Remember , you're the one who let me go .

you're tht one that didnt treasure me , now you want me back.

Its the past already boy./

2010-08-30T22:28:00.000-07:00

One full week at school already . Everyday going thru the same routine .

wakeup>late for school>talktalk>school end>slack

Not going for ncc anymore , maybe :B

i know myself i got myself into alot problems , change alrights charissa.

sometimes i rather my life was like the past , happy me . No use thinking so much anw (:

missing so many people right nao ,

♥'s shuting , shiqing , charmaine , jing er , michelle , annabel , jason , geoger , keejoon , jonathan , andy , wenxuan

わたしは、あなたを愛しています

2010-08-17T23:07:00.000-07:00

How long does every forever last ? (K)

03/08/10

2010-08-11T02:45:00.000-07:00

history excursion ;

fcking waste of time . fcking principal .

Reached the hdb place , 45min walk around go home already .

Waited 20min for the school's bus , the bus met w accident .Need ownself take train back .
Lousy school , lousy everything -.-

Trained back , met alex jonathan , then perle fongying sherlby go Sakura for jonathan's bd.

damm fun , make alot noise there kna stare by people. walked around , then cabbed t jonathan's house .

talk talk , eat cake , home .

2010-08-07T22:05:00.000-07:00

Don't let anyone ever promise you that they will never hurt you because at one time or another, it will happen. The real promise is if the time you spend together will be worth all the pain in the end.

Friday ; skipped school .Met up gwyneth , jonathan , benedict slack . After , shuting and michelle came down . went 老woodlands get some stuff . At night , go taste of thailand find someone , then to 213 . went off to home after that.

Saturday ; meet shuting'baby slackslack . Church after that. Home at 8plus , tired.

Today ; gna sleep sleep , not gna wake up . I hate it when my mother gets paraniod for no reason.

Saw this at someone's blog , so f true .

10 facts about girls:

1. Girls love surprise hugs from the back, at the waist area.
2. They text everyday, wanting to know their boy's whereabouts.
3. Girls detest late replies!
4. Girls hate being rejected.
5. When a girl say "fuck you", they don't meant literally fucking you.
6. Girls hate it when their guy talks about some other girl right in her face.
7. Don't EVER try making a girl jealous to test her feelings, things might turn ugly.
8. When a girl calls you up and ask about random stuffs, she just miss you and your voice.
9. When a girl stops texting a guy, I advice the guy to better off start worrying.
10. They want guys to take every initiative, this is a must

2010-08-06T09:00:00.000-07:00

" ERASE EVERYTHING. "

-be strong and walk away

2010-08-05T08:29:00.000-07:00

so many things happened this period . so many ups and downs , w friends and r/s . Life sucks , but its goes on isn't it ? im not gna let all this bring me down , i dont want to fall the second time . Gna stay strong like how i was (Y) i dont want be like dog , keep holding on , emo . LOLOLOL Haha

Friends come and go . seen who're my true friends , seen the real faces of those bitches , seen who was really there for me . Maybe all this are tests isn't it ? Its painful going thru all this , seeing people leaving . Too many things happen all at once , its not easy , really not .

i stayed quiet , silent , just to conceal everything im going thru. Everything's alright now already .
fck that pubor , fck that hongster (:

♥ jonathan♡ , jinger♡ , shuting♡ , shiqing , doctor♡ , annabel , priya and all those who're there for me :> luvluv you all.

♥♥♥

2010-07-26T16:46:00.000-07:00

I dont know what t update.

2010-07-12T22:35:00.000-07:00

Hi,

Sick again :>
Morning ; polyclinc , waited so long.

Gna meet shiqing , shuting and others later.
Tuition after that.

Not going school tmrw . On mc

Gna sleep till afternoon , dead tired already !

Meeting Jing er , jocelyn , shiqing ; maybe alex botak .

Bye.

i love you.

Thanks for making me realise i trusted the wrong person, seeing how people can change overnight.

2010-07-04T18:10:00.000-07:00

ONE WEEK MC .

2010-06-27T08:33:00.000-07:00

Post youthcamp pix soon :>

Seeing you happy , thats enough:> uoyevoli eyb eyb .Mwah.

Dont promise when you cant fulfil .

Inomprehensible feelings.

2010-06-24T20:29:00.000-07:00

Thats how much i luv you.
Do whatever you think is right , be happy.
i still wont break that promise.

Funny ; even age i also write wrong.

Yesterday had seoul garden w alex , priya and alson , then to elisa's house .
went to the park camwhore , play true or dare .

effing awesome ♥

today ndp , tomorrow church then need chiong all the homework already !):

Going t meet loretta , then school the next day.

idk how i can finish everything srsly.

2010-06-21T20:40:00.000-07:00

God , keep me strong , help me get thru this ordeal .

you know , i will never wna lose you ,i never mind those stuffs.

2years might be long , but i'll wait.

♥

Spec course yesterday , supa fun w all the sea people.
Loooking forward to wednesday !

Oh and has anyone started on school work?
School is in like 7 days.
:(

2010-06-18T08:06:00.001-07:00

Alex very jealous *points up

Just came back from youth camp , awesomeeeeeeeee.

I rather i never came back , i hate singapore life.

Cant spend so much money ; cant everyday go shopping , drink my starbucks everyday like in youthcamp that 5days. HAHA

upload the pix if im free :>

History repeats again , life never changes.

Sometimes i wna let go , so i can deceive it wont hurt . But it does work that way. uoyevoli

2010-06-12T02:27:00.001-07:00

Out for chinese lantern project and town w cousin.

People never learn to be strong until they have no choice.

2010-06-06T10:24:00.000-07:00

im gna stay strong(Y)
you win , happy ?
I kinda miss those days when you're not like this.
Those days we went drinking , going crazy tgt.
Where my everyday life , mostly involves you.
Those days you're rly my friend , where we walk thru the toughest part of our lives tgt.
Its gone,you've changed.
After crying so much, its time to let go.
you let go it first

P.s/: I know what you did.
I rather you're true to me that you disliked things and we still stay as friends like the past

2010-05-26T04:00:00.000-07:00

off t find the real me.
Hate all this pretense im holding on t run away from reality.
Hiding every sadness to myself , smiling all the way . its painful
Changing in every way so i appear stronger.
Deleting every evidence that show my flaws.
Its enough , really.
Doesnt mean cause i fall real bad this time means i dont come up.
I wna cry it all out , tomorrow i'll be different.

Charissa luvfeliciavm\m/

2010-05-24T03:31:00.000-07:00

I so freaking luv my brother , Alex cheah N.
Cried so much this few days , worth it yea .
Sometimes it takes things to realise how much a person can be to you.
I'm so OMG happy nao.
I'll remember that rocket story.
Hope this sister-brothership stays strong :>

&&& y'knw the feeling of losing someone or something , then getting back ? :D very song.

Flunk my exams , almost all fail.
Nevm , i started studying again already ! LOL

Holidays coming;
29th-30th; Shopping , sheesha , drinking session♥
5th,12th,19th,26th;NDP ,get to see my brandon wifey.
14th-18th; youth camp
21th; shopping

Still so many unconfirmed.

Fifteen birthday

2010-05-24T03:26:00.000-07:00

Late post .
Some things happen on my birthday , dont wna elaborate.
Sorry uh , birthday so must show off abit.

Got my glossy jacket :D , chocolates , alot stuff.
credits : sherlby , annabel , siewmun, erica , qiaomin , shihui , fongying , mingxuan , jialong , weesiang , perle , adeline , michelle , anita , shamah , qiyin ,qwen , charlene , rachel,yongping.
Phone ;

priya , jonathan , jason , benjamin , caleb , alson , qiaomin , gina , xuanzheng , elisa , weesiang , jialong , mingxuan , aunty shawna , adeline , alex botak kor , liuhui , michelle , jiezhi , sherlby , felicia , shihui ,qiyin , anita , shamah .

Facebookie ;

93notifications
marilyn , sharon , brandon , aishah, cindy , zhiyong , tianpoh , nicholas , fanny , mingwei , hanisah , elisa , deeni , siauxin , stacy , caleb , rina , yirui , kavita , clarance , ezekiel , charlene , amanda goh , gina , eswari , alvin , adele , jerome , sean soh , hari , desmond new , peik foong , weesien , tzejun , dylan , vinna , rachel , desmond neo , weijie , carrie , saleem , javiel , deyao , visnupriya , Rebecca , ahquan ahdi , jhan ric , annabel , shihui , alicia , dennis , darren ho , jialing , xiubin , harish , issac chang , alex cheah , wanting , yizhong , kimm , jonathan loong , doreen , diyanah , clement , desvin , farah , jonathan lee, peizhen , siewmun , jingyi , amanda , brandon , ruiwen , qiyin , benny , scott , serene , ginming , timothy , rasyidah.

Thanks (L)

2010-05-23T05:06:00.000-07:00

Goodbye ♡ , sighs.
sorry for misplacing you trust in me.

Give give give him up

2010-05-20T22:54:00.000-07:00

"Some of us thinks holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go."

2010-05-12T00:41:00.000-07:00

"Just because the past is painful, doesn’t mean the future will be. So never let events from the past, change the events for the future. Or you will be miserable forever."

I think im random , time i really updated my blog.
Birthday reminds me of the old days.

Dslr , eyeliner , new handphone , all the clothes , headband , biker jacket , chio manicure , new pink bed , everything pink , sweeeeeeeeeets , vans shoes , Dickies , you.

All can flood one just come flood my house la .LOL
Hope daddy buys for me a toy poodle (:

Simpsons ( i think i spelled it wrongly? Did i?! )
I used to buy alot of those sweet from toyrus. Was primary school then.
ooh balloons.
I really want like alot alot alot of balloons on my bday :)
Like a whole room filled with ittttt ~
(& not get chased around w someone holding a cake)

Caramel Frap
-Loves-

I like hot air balloons, so cute.
So pretty, but so scaryyyyyyy~
I wna have a pink heartshape hot air balloon.

And like 'ahhhhh' she is so skinny :(
Fuckshit i am as fat as an elephant.. Ew :(

Look at her eyes too. So chiooooooooooo.
My eyes shit like anything
-zxczxczxczxc-
@!@$$^%@!*@^%*#^*&#!^%^

'mad as hatter' by OPI alice in wonderland collection :)

Chio only.
My heart see already beat so fast ,i'm so jealous.
I really like the chanel one and the 'mad as hatter' :(
So CHIO
I want my OPI nail polish.. So badlyyyyy ~
Fucking chio luh all the colours. Chanel as super chio nail polish colours.
But fucking expensive luh.. Like $50+? Fuck it
OPI is like $23-$28? And it so much biggerrrrrrrr ~ AHAHHAHA
So cheapo aunty !
I Luv The Leopard Prints one , manicure in the holidays? Ahaa

Ps/ birthday coming , good or bad?
wished you're there.

2010-05-11T03:48:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday Alex nipple cheah !

Happy birthday ! old liao , time to grow up . Thanks for being there for me , that talk at eighteen chef , and during food and nutrition lesson. Help me get back confidence also. Seeing thru the past pictures , remembering the time we went t bugis , the susprise party for me ,the escape theme park outing , now one year pass alr. your birthday now , next monday mine :> That time still sec2. Now sec 3 alr grow up uh. Continue creating trouble at class okie , love all your jokes la. Cry alr also think funny.Dont keep show off your crumpler and watch uh.

Luvzxc you , anything , im here:>

Peektures from last year's birthday.

2010-05-07T02:53:00.000-07:00

*ignore my cockshit face
Remember last year how i got bashed w the cake by alex , how friends plan the suprise party , how they lied to me its not for me , how i almost cried , how amazing that many people remember there's sucha day , how people share money buy present , how touching the cards were wrote.

Again this year , Birthday coming !
um coming like in 10 days :DDDDDDDDDD

will it be like last year or it wont ?
I dont know , love my life now.
Got sisters , brothers , friends going thru w me ups and downs , only now no $$$

Grown so much from last year , all the downs and problems faced.
Even enemies become best friends.

How much i was a crybaby , how much a fcuk attitude i've got.

Growing stronger and stronger each day.

Luvzxc you all ♥

2010-04-30T09:30:00.000-07:00

Some things just cant be changed , time couldnt rewind again , just have to live w it and be strong.A dream i thought that was real , another nightmare. Cannot give up :>
I still haven got my undone shopping.
I still haven celebrate my 'awesome' birthday.
I still haven get my most happiest smile back.
I still haven get back all that i've lost.
I still haven grow my long hair back.
I still haven seen you enough.
I still haven done the super chio manicures.
I still haven get to get all the freedom i want.
I still haven got annabel back up from her fall.
I still haven got to be myself , the real me.
I still haven got to eat all the sweeeeeeeets.
I still haven got to show you how much i care.

I still haven got to say i love you , again.

I still haven alot alot alot alot things.

I still haven got to enjoy lifeeeeeeee

❤im strong

2010-04-26T06:49:00.000-07:00

Gone and goodbye.
im never crying for all those stupid stuff anymore, you people just suck ttc.Im contented w my fucked up life at least, just leave me alone.

you can choose to ignore this post

2010-04-24T07:59:00.000-07:00

Like for real; ignore it.

Those times ; those nights we spent laughing,smiling for hours at anything.where the world can fall but you'll still be there.No matter what problems i have, as long as you're there everything's alright.I rush outta the house just you see you for that few minutes. No matter how much i feel like giving up , you're there holding me on.Those times you do stupid things just for me.How retarded it was .Those texts and letters you sent,getting so touched.Those tears i've shed , Those nights thinking when will you be gone.Those obstacles we went thru together.Those hugs and kisses you gave.Everything that you did.We knew the love between us.That time you came my house ton w blzhblzhblzhblaz .The every lil things to do w you just makes me go beyond words...
4months , aint easy going thru , hiding all kind of emotions all to myself.Always worrying what's on your mind.Its really enough, im over it , but i just cant let it go.i freaking hate myself for all this.remember what i always tell you,you're the one i cant live w/o.Im going thru all this strong now,dont break me away again.Dont kill me w your eyes and comments again.I hate my life,especially one w/o you.
I hate saying all this again and again.

kkbye

Studying , hide and seek

2010-04-17T06:44:00.000-07:00

w christin , weesiang , annabel ,siauxin
Met them late , went to library find them.
Saw so many familiar people otw , seanna and co , fatin and co
Everyone got distracted when i come , funny , keep play w my bows.

Christin look christin , annabel look like yunji , damm korean

Siauxin extra ;

Fail -'-

I swear that security man in the library effing irritating.

Keep come check check.
I sneak bubble tea in also cant drink until he go.

Went subway :>
keep screaming , shouting ppl around all look.
Stole siauxin's cookie , then she start throwing vegetables around.
Thats why the (below) happens *points

Love the straw heart ttm (L)

Christin's f* extra hand.

hahaaaahah annabel cant get in (:

Failed ;

Fail again -.-

Cmi again , at least can see my face

Got the fucking couple look , stead la stead la .LOL joke

Weesiang laughing at the rotate joke !

Love this peekture :>>>>

Played hide and seek at northpoint.

Hiding places @kiddy palace ,popular,arcade,cold storage .

Had so much fun !^^

Keep camwhoring.
I admit i keep take my picture, siauxin dont need announce !

one month anni texting leb ! Lol
Love tht text you send me . only you will rmb this date can.I dont even rmb.

aku cinta kamu ,

2010-04-15T02:51:00.000-07:00

I used to be love drunk , but now I'm hungover .

what you want from me , bitch .Give you my phone already. Sigh , so many things happened. Not gonna elaborate ): cried like never before.Realised so many things.Nevermind , its time to step back and let go.Im giving up , so tired of all this endless problems.
Love that felicia who was always there (L)

Some things cant be changed , you've got your chance.

Tomorrow speech day ! okay not that excited.
Need to wake up earlyyy :< dont let me see your face bitch

Twinkle twinkle lil star

2010-04-09T07:05:00.001-07:00

Twinkle, twinkle, little star
How I wonder what you are
Up above the world so high
Like a diamond in the sky
Twinkle, twinkle, little star
How I wonder what you are

I dont know why i love lullabyes so much.
From young i love star and heartshapes alot.
when we're young we used to think when will be grow up and have all the freedom.

I rather be a child now ;
Daddy and mummy will always protect me , i would stay as naive as i was in the past , i would cry for small things and feel better after that , i can get almost everything i want , life seems so simple and perfect.Things won't be so bad.sigh

Yesterday Ncc , next wednesday ncc again , friday speech day.
Cant wait for speech day to be over, training so tiring.
And i haven opened any of my textbooks since the school holidays.
Mid year in another 2 or 3 weeks more?omgzxczxc Die
Tomorrow having some photoshoot , church , study.
I need to get back my fucking phone !

Bye update tmr.

Tag replies

2010-04-09T05:36:00.000-07:00

I think i very long never reply already so yeahs , slowly look:>

Shihui: LOL, Cheerful charissa this time round. && not annabel toh peckhiang meh ?
}Sorry la type too fast:> I strong okay ! wont cry already , i think
WILSON!!!: yooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tagged~ yeap my blog dead leee
}update lah
ANNABEL: eh walao dont emo coz of me! MUZ BE HAPPY COZ OF MEEEEEEE! <3>
}I emo for you for what?LOLOLOL fake. ♥
Melissa: Hey hey tagged ((((:
} Still remember you got this backside uh(:
qia0: tag tag.be happy.i can give u my son if he wantsXD
}Okay ! you say one(: Hahaaaahah
psb: Cheerup , you deserve better andz you very pretty.
}Oh okay ; i will , thanks sweet (:
hanisah: me pretty ? eeewwwww ! and babe ! you looked so sexaayyy !
}I say pretty means pretty lah bodoh , Sexy uh ,naturally LOL
Yourass.: Brave girl, (Y).
} Of course ,i will turn scars into super nice tattoos , i hope.Thanks for being there (: Love you lots.
Vanny: Love you < style="color:#ff6666;">}I will bxtch (: ♥
WILSON!!!: tagged~
} (:
Marilyn: thanks anw for the very very gud scolding! (:
} Hahaaahah next time got again text me.I go scold LOL
Nicholas: why dont i see my name anywhere?Lol
}Put your name for what?you owe me my chocolates dude! :>
Gwenny: 313 ^^
} next time we go kkkkkk.
Ah kiong: TAGGY!
}Hello sucka ,
SIAUXIN: cause i'm loveable. ! So wrong lahhhh!
}hahaaahah
Gwenny: Tagged~ Need to tell you something.Text
}Okay random. Hahah
SIAUXIN: YOU LOVE ME RIGHT? HAHAH
SIAUXIN: FOUND IT, LIKE FINALLY. HAHAHAHHAA. I hate spammmmers!
} Yah love love .I scold back then he/she/shim diamdiam kays
WILSON!!!: tagged~
}Update blog uh
Gwenny: biatch , you cut short hair uh? LOLOLOLOLOL shocking .
} yea i cut.Cannot uh?LOL i regret already la
qia0: my god..the colour so blinding...and make so big somemoreXD TAGG
} pinkpinkpink :D
WILSON!!!: tagged~ let bygones be bygones ok?
} (:
Guesswhoisme: Hai *****, Im here. Ya stupid bloody phone. Just like you, Stupid. Ok la, Im off. Buai i love uue.
}my ass sist lah , you dont know use phone for what also.Everytime dont reply
小Lene: Thanks fr tht h2h talk tht timee sist.lub die you<3>
} Be strong , you've got a world of chances.Wont die w/o a guy kk.Try!
JANELLEEEE: wah seh good.Gwen miss you and i disappear ):
JANELLEEEE: Me too.Next time go shopping tgt^^ luv you babe♥
} ♥you too.you see gwen everyday in school babe,jealous what?LOL
Gwenny: Heyhey , miss you loads.Meet up soon yeas ! (: hahahahah
} Okays , at that tree place again (: hahaaahah
ANNABEL: updateeee! (((;
}update already
ahBEN™: hellooos. (:
}Helloh (:
Yongpingg (;: CHARISSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
}YONGPINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!
...: if the person doesnt want you then its his loss. dont let yourself drown in this pain. u can choose to get out of it. choose to let yourself be happy.
}Sigh ):
SIAUXIN: SEC2 CAMP SHIRRRRRRRRT. trying to show off ribbbbbon ah?
}YES show off!
MICHELLE,♥: HELLO. TAQTAQ,HAHA,BYEBYE.(:
}Text me uh , i want your mama rebonding.LOL miss you alot.Long time never see you alr
qia0: lalala^^
}Lalaaaala ^^ crazy
mariLYNN: Relinks !! Thanks (:
} relinked(:
ahBEN™: tagged you (:
}I just realised i never once tagged you
ANNABEL: TAGGGGEDDDDDDD :O
}you make me rmb abt your tagboardless blog
SIAUXIN: GOOD GIRL DONT DRINK AH, MIND YOUR HEALTH HOR!
} who drink siah.I never drink one lorh
WILSON!!!: hey... ther person beside u.. looks like..... chong
}Dont anyhow
sherlby(:: REPLY MY MESSAG LURHS, AIYAHS.
} (:

2010-04-08T02:54:00.000-07:00

Forget the times you walked by,
Forget the times you've made me cry,
Forget the times you held my hand,
Forget the sweet things if I can,
I can no longer pretend,
I've to remember now that you're just a stranger.

im gonna be happy , not like that crybaby today.

I may never smile like before, life will get better soon i hope

2010-04-07T05:31:00.000-07:00

Cantbelieveimsopositiveaboutlifenowadays.Maybeyoureallymademestronger,knowing nothing is fair.
Life's a bitch ,like a muthafucking bitch sometimes.
When you wanna get it , it never really comes.
When you're not so obsessed w it , it just keeps coming to you.
Its unfair , thats why its call life.

Okays Omgzxc damm tired now.Almost everyday is ncc , hate it when it ends late.
Go home late nevermind , got the whole load of homework.
See already also dont feel like doing.
I feeel like sleeping while im typing all this srsly.Sucha failure
Hate myself for being so lazy.keep wait last min then do homework

TALKING TO ANNABEL TOH PECK HIANG NAO.
Currently complaining to me , funny.Tell her wait for me go cut hair dont want.Dont wait for me, in the end nao complaining.Complain somemore LOLOLOL
Eh eh y'knw i think green and pink is the best match.

CALEBKHOOHONGHAO
Be strong ,I know you angry,pekchek whatever you still care about your family one.Just ignore , one day they will change and treat you better one.Come rant at me when i get my phoneeee back :>

2010-04-03T07:29:00.000-07:00

Remember those days...

Come back to blogging in future when my heart lets me do so.
Hahaaaahah so fake.

2010-04-02T08:12:00.000-07:00

Ever wondered why we have two eyes but one heart.We can see the wrong person , making the wrong judgement and learn from the mistake.But once that one heart is given ,it somehow never really comes back.♥

:DDDDD

2010-03-30T07:21:00.000-07:00

Super lazy to upload the pix.See facebook :>
Party was super damm fun.Just so happening.Like really

Helloh , Woots , super hyper nao.
I dont know why ;

Currently talking to deyao , javier , felicia , annabel , sherlby.

And i haven finish my homework ! howhowhow

Ncc this whole week , tmr gg hospital.

Mr chew suck ; promise the stuff all never fulfil.Say wont call parents also call.Sucha liar can.

Oh yesterday ,so much fun^^

Looking forward to next outing:D

Old sherlby's Back ! LOL

Truth will still say as truth , reality will never change

2010-03-26T07:22:00.000-07:00

'People say love is an obsession ; but lies will be just lies'

Life will get better right?

2010-03-23T05:51:00.000-07:00

Smiles to myself , hahaaaahah :>

Billy chew -.-

I miss my long hair :(
Grow faster leh ,

Love chinese lesson ; keep playing only.
THOMAS GOH CHAO TECK > Jie mei yi tiao xin .LOL *Laughs at your stupidness
Ahaahahah struggling w studies already.
Maths & literature=confirm fail

Dead tired already , gonna sleep soon:D Finally
Homework not done.hahaaaahah.Tomorrow ! I think i will rmb , maybe only.LOL
Kthxbye.

I love you in every way ,but just not the same.I hate knowing you.you've got me nao ;but your heart's gone.where did the trust go?

I cant even trust myself , what makes you think i can trust you again.

2010-03-21T01:41:00.000-07:00

Yesterday,

313 and bugis w Melissa :>

Shopping heaven there , 4 storeys Forever21 there. Didnt get anything there :<

New look^^ , TOPSHOP and the cotton on outlet damm big.
Hahaaaahah , uper fun there.
Cotton on got some shades w alot floral one , damm weird , wear alr look like those small children sunglasses.Scared no money shop other place then the person never see we keep take pictures.

Super funny ,tourist look somemore.
Go bugis more funny ; melissa say want try wig , then in the end try on me.Zzz Look like some person w alot alot of hair.And its brown ,the light one. Then that woman go help me put extensions somemore.One mushroom w straight hair.
Then in the end cousin dont want buy ,then zao.WDF feel damm bad can. then she say we entertaining that aunty-.-

Anw New floral pumps , new tops , new rings , new headbands ; argh BROKE.

Tomorrow back to school ,nao 8.13pm , haven started any homework.Omgzxc
Pray hard.

Texting dumbass for 4 days alr.Luvzxc him ttm; always telling me crap making me forget th bad things
♥

Trust God

2010-03-17T06:53:00.000-07:00

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. (Psalm 139:15-16)
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. (Matthew 6:31-33)
Because I love you with an everlasting love. (Jeremiah 31:3)
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:4)
For it is I who gave you those desires. (Philippians 2:13)
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. (Ephesians 3:20)
For I am your greatest encourager. (2 Thessalonians 2:16-17)
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. (2 Corinthians 1:3-4)
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. (Psalm 34:18)
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. (Revelation 21:3-4)
And I’ll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. (Revelation 21:3-4)I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. (John 17:23)
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. (Romans 8:31-32)
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me. (1 John 2:23)
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again. (Romans 8:38-39)
Come home and I’ll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen.(Luke 15:7)
I have always been Father, and will always be Father. (Ephesians 3:14-15)
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. (2 Corinthians 5:18-19)

Earcandy : Ray J - One Wish

2010-03-16T08:28:00.000-07:00

"If I had one wish, we would be best friends.
Love would never end, it would just begin.
If I had one wish, you would be my boo.
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you"

Prevailed against all odds

2010-03-15T08:13:00.000-07:00

From the peektures taken w annabel from sec1 until now , people see already will ask we cousin , sist or whatever.So so so many things happened in between.I know ANNABEL still loves me ! Hahaaahah:>

Love the domokun toy i bought for annabel.
Im so gonna borrow from her for a few days ^^ Hahaaahah:>
Oh wow, my hair like !@#$%!@#$
Gonna rebond soon.Thanks to michelle's mama !^^ Discounted

Went t Town today. Camwhore-ed & Seoul garden^^
Had so much fun today.

Things happened but i come back stronger then before.

2010-03-09T07:11:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday weesiang ! :>
siauxin say me and alex buy the wallet nice(Y)

Talking to felicia on msn , wanting to go SSC splashpark.
Thinking about how much i want to be a small child again.Running around playing w almost no problems.when we young, we think about when will be be able to grow up and gain the freedom and only have fun.Now we think of going back to the past.we never really get enough of what we want sometimes.Life really sucks.No choice still have to get thru.Sometimes will think why others can have better.lets just say life's real damm unfair.Damm shag.when im okay alr,i'll be normal again like last friday.sigh

To someone:
you'll know the truth someday ,I did it for a reason.Just be happy and gain your confidence back please.

2010-03-08T06:00:00.000-08:00

So so so so many peektures :<
Continue posting tmr.
All heads and hearts locked.
I think im stupid to love you but why?
Idk what im talking.okay bai
♥

2010-03-06T07:58:00.000-08:00

when there's love , there's pain ! ♥
If you follow the alone star my love will get you home
If the bright lights blind your eyes my love will get you home
If your troubles break your strike my love will get you home
If you ever find yourself losing long alone get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.

Swimming and Shaera's birthday @ Annabelle's condo

Post peektures tomorrow :>

i cant say , cant vent anything out.only to keep it to myself.people will be happier w this me.

The Truth

2010-03-03T22:04:00.000-08:00

Jesus says ;
"Do not be afraid; just believe." Mark 5:36

yesterday midnight , studying for physics test.
you know studies really bore you out sometimes.Mother finally slept.Sneaked out take comp into bedroom.
Facebook > blog > webcam

I cant live one day w/o my pink bunnyyyy^^ Birthday present

And yes ! I didnt finish studying. LOL

&&& Another miracle , me me charissalim can get full marks for history :D

But some teacher's daughter go sabo.

Thanks uh but the most i write the essay again.Haha LOL

Skipped school for 2 days alr ,tmr going back.

And Im updating so TAGGGGGG. dont view and run(:

&&&I've learned

2010-03-03T08:14:00.000-08:00

My biggest mistake in life is to trust too easily, especially w the wrong people.

At least i've learnt finally(: I wont say anything anymore.I live my life , you live yours. Probably you wont be so free to find me.HAHA I dont mind either.I hate all those changing and arranging just to suit you.Im not tht weak girl you used to know.I wont be a crybaby like the past.perhaps i've realised no one can be trusted.

&&&From tmr onwards,i'll be Me. *clapps
you can get talking but baby im walking away...

2010-03-02T02:12:00.000-08:00

you choose who to draw hearts to, choose how you want your life to be.
One life , you cant rewind , Move on and live life to the fullest !(:

Life aint easy for me . Reality is cruel . Sometimes you get the blame even if you didnt do anything. Friends come and go like anything . I cant have everything in life , i cant study well.So? You never lived my life ,you dont know every detail about me.Life is just that unfair . After you pick yourself up from a fall , you see people going thru the same thing. you'll know how much you lose . Life is so full of ups and downs.

Smile and be happy(:
1 plus more years to go...

2010-02-26T05:45:00.000-08:00

Cross country:>
I know im lazy.I dont update(:
Didnt take any pictures today,all cause of my bloody phone.
No memory one.

Cabbed there> run >pepperlunch >home>Ncc
I go there run not to take picture right.
Im proud of myself,change into a good girl alr.LOL
Look down look down;look at siauxin's face !

Laugh die sial i tell you.
Look like she enjoying something damm wrong.HAHA
&fyi ;siauxin and christin lying on someone's lap.
Slowly guess who siauxin lying on lah.
LOLOLOLOL

Ncc tmr again.Prepare to die from pushups alr.

Finish updating.Dead tired now.
kthxbyebye.

2010-02-25T05:02:00.000-08:00

Just another hard fall ; i'll pick myself up from where i fall !(:

cause i know i'll never be the same w/o you ;
I'll rant , i'll cry , someday i'll forget(: I can live w/o you.
Where's the trust you promised me? hai

2010-02-17T02:43:00.000-08:00

Day 1:
church > grandma house > cousin house > blahblahblah
Love melissa♥
Keep fighting if raffles is hot or not.lols
Srsly rotting at those houses.Adults talking about work and comparing who older.wtf.
Jealous ; all cousins so hot.
Raffles very stupid , agree melissa?

Day2:

Rotting at home .use comp whole day.

Day3:

Annabel&weesiang came my house painian.
Went Mr ng house, Hongbao^^ *winkwinks

Pictures below;

Eighteen chef w AnnabelToh

Bugis-ing w SherlbyOng

Haircut at Jeanyip

Kthxbyebye

im awesomatic ; felicia says so.

2010-02-15T02:16:00.000-08:00

Mr ng , annabel & weesiang's house tmr
Didn't go out at all today, use comp the whole day. Zomg. :<

P/S : Didn't had the time to upload my pictures.
I promise tomorrow. :>

2010-01-22T04:42:00.000-08:00

Overdue peektures
last sunday went to study w robin and sherlby.yeahs i rly was a good girl and i studied okay.okay! i know you people will never believe.went woodlands library study,no place to sit then went to mac.train back yishun.dont wann to elaborate from here alr.some mad girl was crying and screaming.

Oh and yes yes,i chopped off my ugly fringe.I think its even uglier.A fugly face w a fugly hair.oh gosh.I pray it faster grow long long.Or i wont be going out! =/

2010-01-16T05:24:00.000-08:00

Me:im always not in any picture in your blog
shihui:oh cause i have none of you and me tgt,actually got one of me and you also but qiaomin behind.
Me:who is strawberry?
shihui:you asking the obvious hor.
Me:say you love me.LOL
shihui:I LOVEEE YOUU(:

SEE shihui wann put my picture one just that no chance take picture w me.shihui shy shy only dont dare confess to me.LOL^^v

2010-01-15T03:32:00.000-08:00

PEEEEEEPS!

hahaas, obviously im not charissalim righttt? guess who i am :D

well this lazy pig dunno what to update,

so im here to update for her!

some photo taken in sec1 lifeeee :P

any changes? like no change right? HAH.

everybody grow up liao lehhs.

time pass by so quickly, already sec3? DDDDDD:

blahblahblah idk what to update now so..

BUAI-BAI!

2010-01-14T02:57:00.000-08:00

我恨死你了! ):

2010-01-12T03:30:00.000-08:00

I wished i could rant everything out.
I wished i could get free of you.
I wished i could forget everything that happened.
I wished i could just ignore you like we dont even know each other.
I wished i could treat it like nothing happened.
I wished i could never cry for you ever.
I wished i could choose not to love you.
I wished i could not be mad and crazy for you.
I wished i could hold you tight and never let go.
I wished i could make you turn back.
I know it aint going to happen,but i cant say goodbye.
❤

2010-01-10T04:57:00.000-08:00

Im gonna be happy,move on and forget you(if you believe)
to someone:stop being a bastard srsly.why do you have to keep lying to others about things between us

Just came back from church.Awesome
Crap , gastric problems acting up again.Wish me luck in my checkup tmr at KK.
School's really boring nowadays w/o having annabel.
Used to it.Been sitting w her in class for 2 years.
School=study > cry > eat > study > talk talk > home

All those times i cried,i still believed you
I've learned,things dont change overnight.
I was dumb enough to trust it again.
No matter what you do it wont make me hate you and forget everything.so why try

2010-01-08T06:31:00.000-08:00

They tell me let go,he is not the one.He dont want it,not like you want it.Scheming and cheating.Oh girl, why do you waste your time,you know he aint right.Silly of me to keep holding on.I still love you,but I just cant do this.I may be dumb but im not stupid.

2010-01-05T02:01:00.000-08:00

If i close my eyes,can i forget everything? If you ever notice my existence,i would be gone by then.
so what if i want to cry out loud?So what if i want to forget you?
Yes,i still steal peeks at him.
I dont know what he's thinking.He'll never tell me anw.
Yes i still love him.
Yes i can't forget him.
Yes i can't let go of the past.
But you think i wanted it this way?
Im trying very hard alr and you all just dont understand me.
Im lying to you if i say i forgotten everything and i love you no more.

if i could choose i wished i was just live a normal peaceful life w/o you appearing.now im finding it so hard to get out.i dont want those memories.last time its happy memories now its nightmares that i wake up crying.

2010-01-05T01:16:00.000-08:00

Oh im super der fucked up,
alot friends?pui
whats the use of having friends when you cant trust most of them.
yes,clique yeah.
Close until your words mean shyt,you're nothing,give attitude.
I had enough okay.

Another close friend.
when you need me you come ask so many things,and i get attituded for that.
I dont have to help you at all.
You treat it as its my duty to do is it?
Need me you call ,dont need you just disappear.

fuck what do you take me as?knnbccb

2010-01-01T23:40:00.000-08:00

Bomb my head outta the past you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck you suck

I still dont know who im scolding.hahahaha i just feel like posting.
And im getting paranoid and mad nowadays.
Going to church soon ! Gonna cry out my sorrows.bye

Never despise anyone.
Even the ugliest duckling can be perfected w science,can grow up being pretty instead.one day you might be losing out to them.

Seems like just a normal procedure to cry everynight.Finally texted you.yeah stay as friends?hahaas cant believe what i told you.Hah.Praying that you'll be happy everyday.Guess this is the happiness you need and not me:/

2009-12-31T01:03:00.000-08:00

Third time posting today.LOL
Got back my time from mia-ing.

Oh yes,Im never crying again if i can control.
I always wake up the next day having horrible eyes.
My Double eyelids are coming out !^^
And yes they disappear cause i have swollen eyes after crying-.-
Charissa wants nice eyes ! LOL

2009-12-30T23:44:00.000-08:00

Going for countdown at church later^^
After then left 3days to school ! *excited
Gonna see chocolates flooding my whole bag.
If i work and i see money rolling in,im not int in school(:
Srsly i dont even know what is a new year resolution-.-
I never wrote one anyway.No wonder my marks so lan

I want to be a good girl (:
Cannot be late for school alr!
Study super hard and get super good results.
Dont get caught for anything in school.
Have good record in teachers' eyes.
Stop copying ppl's homework
Hand up all the bloody homework
Cannot get chased out by teacher
Have more and more $$$$
Improve my chinese and maths.
No more troubles and problem alr
Stop all those vulgarity
Forget him ):

Get ready see my long skirt next year^^ This two years from sec1 until now i think the teachers got very bad impressions of me.they only want hear what those prefects say.so biased.All teachers only like those guai guai one.fuck em.I prove to them i also can study one.I rmb mr tan say my maths no hope one.then i prove him wrong at end of year(:

2009-12-30T20:33:00.000-08:00

Backkkkkkkkk

Hey,I know i mia for 3days only.But its killing me kk.

Im facing reality alr.i'll get over it someday right?hah

I got mood zilian somemore!LOL

Yesterday went Bishan watch Alvin and the chipmunks2 w alex,annabel and weesiang.Went to woodlands instead cause no ticket.Look see look see at wdls then came back yishun.Saw siauxin and co.Annabel and alex went back earlier.Left me peizhen siauxin and weesiang.Talked then went back at 10.

Alex start mentioning about his mom saying that im ahlian again.Then annabel join in say also-.- Please lorrs i so guai where got ahlian right!

Jin Hui: Tagged don be sad got any problem sms me i be your advisor haha lol

} haha,thanks uh.I dont know still got your no anot.Never change right?
FANNY: Charissa , stop talking to yourself. Face reality. It's reality. Life is a reality.. And see you soonz.

} Im okay alr.Nowadays never call me out one.
JieYing: Cheer Up Girl

} Im okay alr.Say goodbye to boyfriends.Dont need them.anw thanks(:
JE T'AIME ★: I'm Marilyn (: relinks ! (:

} relinked
SIAUXIN: GET OVER HIM, IT'S LIKE HE'S NOT YOUR HEART LOR, NO HIM, ALSO NOTHING WRRONG ONE.

} Like yesterday like that lorrs.we still talk until quite happy.

2009-12-27T19:41:00.000-08:00

C'mon Charissa stop dreaming,forget him.
Its gonna be 2010 .
He's never coming back.wake up from that dream and move on.
All those crying nights over nights.
Dont eat dont sleep,is that what you want?
Face reality,its over,he's never coming back ):
Stop telling yourself that nothing happen at all .Stop acting like you're alright.
Nothing lasts forever,you should have treasure those times ):
See now its gone,cry so much for what?
You left me to treat my wounds.
Who's gonna mend this broken heart?
Mia , gone , byebye.

Fidelity hearts is how much i love you♥

2009-12-26T07:02:00.000-08:00

HYPERRRRRR
Talked to annabel again^^
She's gonna spend recess w me me,Charissa!
:DDDDDDDDDDD
Hey remember we got a bet on mx and jl ^^
You're so gonna lose,then i'll get all the bb tea! (:
Had so much fun texting.
Annabel heart+mind only got fat fat charissa.
No one can squeeze in alr(:
Then Annabel say my heart only must have her.
Then i tell her some part is (blank) derhhs then she say she gonna make herself fat.LOL

wo hen xiang ta.kuai dian hui lai xin jia bo! ♥

2009-12-26T03:23:00.000-08:00

FUCK YAAAAAAAA

Hate that fuck party yesterday.

Dont want to elaborate much :/
Today talked to annabel about you.

And i cried real bad again.you'll never know how i felt.

All was just pretence dont you get it? ):
Anw change topic.

Oh Does it make you happy to see me okay and sad?

When im sad you come console me.

Now you think i okay then come add oil.wtf

You're better than me in everything anw.

Oh yes, Know it okays i never once forgotten about you.

Since love is a lie.Am i falling into that lie again?Dont

2009-12-24T23:17:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas People!

Love this Christmas this year !:D
Didn't go for any countdown party or do anything special.hah
Texting People only.
Love that feeling of having so many people to text.
Sigh cant celebrate christmas w you ): But christmas cant sad i'll wait until its over then start crying(:

Annabel ; suddenly went dead on me while texting.
Robin ; somehow i deleted his text then we stop texting.
Jundah ; wish alr then byebye.stupid.
Desmond ; talk abt some irrelevant stuff.
Jialong ; Best want tell me story in then end never.Then act angry.Fell asleep suddenly again-.-next morning wake up start praising himself clever.
Sherlby ; we keep asking each other buy present.lols.Talking about aunty lucy! LOL
Shihui ; super good to me suddenly.LOL give me smiley face
Ahben ; second last one to wish me.Text him dont know how reply one.
Priya ; last one to wish.Then talk about super alot things.She say i cute(: Went dead on me suddenly also.

SHERLBY BEST ! TALK UNTIL 3.20am w me !
eh rmb my present uh !

2009-12-23T20:32:00.000-08:00

I RANT , YOU RANTStill rmb this picture was taken by annabel that time we went to slack cause i wanted to skip some event.

Split personality maybe?
Went talking to Mingxuan again for 8hours.
I was srsly hypering.Keep telling people i love you.Shihui ask me is it i forget eat medicine somemore.
Then talking to Tzejun ,depressed.Keep asking him to gay with darren.LOL
Take care of him k Jun. Sigh at least he's okay(:

I got problems sleeping again.

Texted people.Only annabel and jialong replied since its so fucking late alr.

And wow,Jialong fell asleep halfway we were texting.ass!

Continue text annabel.I srsly love annabel when she is not pms-ing(:

or she will just keep ranting and say bye for no reason-.- Agree?

Of course,Charissa saved annabel from thinking again.

I told annabel i was born to protect her.LOL

Slept at 2.59am.Cant take it anymore.

Oh yes,mother told me i lost weight.Now become thin(:

Happy ! I teach your follow laoniang dont eat just drink water for days confirm lose weight ! :D

Anw sorry sherlby,didnt text you when you cant sleep.

Got chocolates for people alr!

2009-12-22T21:48:00.000-08:00

REMINISCENCES

Didn't sleep well again.
I got alot things to blog about but i forgot(:
oh yeah , yesterday talked to TEHMINGXUAN for 11hours.
Awesome ! : D

Moodswings again yesterday ,but worst.
Supposed to be happy,in the end my night sickness come back.
Moody , pms , sad ,depressed, whatever !
Found myself crying on the bed again ):
I miss you !♥

After got Siauxin's text that you online,all i thought was to ask her to tell you many things.But she was asleep by then.Haiz
Anyway aint this toy poddle cute? luvzxc it ♥

Daddy says he's gonna buy it for me when we found one that i like : DDDD
But y'knw charissa wants to concentrate studying first.
&It cost freaking one thousandover !@#$%!@#$
I rememeber Darren once promised to earn money to buy me a dog D: sigh
kthxbai !

2009-12-21T20:18:00.000-08:00

THAT REJECTION .❤

Finally had a good sleep yesterday^^
Gonna be busy for christmas,haven rly got the mood back to celebrate.
@tomorrow; bugis-ing or chalet
thurday ; rotting at another chalet
friday ; BBQ and games at my house with church friends^^ gonna be super fun.*excited

And hey Charissa hasn't been eating for 2 days.haha great or what?im gonna see my fats disappear! :DDD

Seriously i think im suffering from mood swings haha.
Im talking to eight different people w different moods.LOL
Sad w Sherlby
Pissed w Mingxuan
Happy w Siauxin
Mixed feelings w Robin
Bo chap w Javier
Neutral w Alex
Normal w qiaomin
Hyper w Benny

Seriously funny.Me and siauxin trying to get people buy us in facebook then we'll be rich and i can buy Darren^^Then we started trying to piss mingxuan off.In the end i got pissed.LOL then i keep telling people im disgusted ,giving this face-.-(: XxxiaoboiiboiixX (siauxin you get the meaning) haha our ahlian got inspired by that.I talked to everyone except sherlby,then she changed her name to NCC SUCKS i think.haha cause i told her that robin put STUPID NCC thats why i talk to him.
Thanks to all this people i got a good sleep!:D Love yaaaaa

2009-12-21T02:08:00.000-08:00

Time has gone now, and the moment has passed? When I had the chance to try and make us last.All alone now,
wanna take it back to the day when we first met,
If I could, I’d start all over again…
Our love is My Regret
Should have known then, what I know now…
Dying every second that you’re not around
Should have loved you, while I had the chance to…
Couldn’t realize that you were the truth
Should have shown you, what you meant to me…
Baby now I see,
Learn to treasure before its gone forever.❤
&&& me and siauxin got ahlian names.LOL xiiaoMIN and xiiaoXIN.

2009-12-18T23:04:00.000-08:00

Every girls dream is to have a fairytale relationship,a perfect simple life w him.
(by lowkayhwa)

2009-12-17T05:20:00.000-08:00

Dont worry people,im okay.
Sometimes i rly wonder why im sucha bitch.
Why i never learnt some stuff before its too late.
I know its better to be happy.
But give me some time yeah.
After i cry,i feel better,Its a brand new day again.
Just let me have that wishful thinking now.
Once a few months,years pass i'll slowly get over it.(ihope)

Love is one game i cant afford to play.
I dont wanna trust it anymore,save myself from crying.

2009-12-17T01:04:00.000-08:00

Hello people !
Back from sabah: D
Oh i forget that i forgot to tell your(:
Dont rly like the food there.Less salt less sugar
Be amazed okay i climb mountain !
Srsly i hate shopping over there.Look see look see also nothing nice.
Only mango shop got nice things&cant buy much things somemore.
Went Justin's house^^
super nice wished i could stay there.

2009-12-14T04:35:00.000-08:00

Just came back from CG outing.
Had so much fun cycling at east coast.
Someone said its fun to cycle w me cause im like a radio that entertains her.LOL

2009-12-13T02:02:00.000-08:00

SHOPPING & STAYOVER :DDD

Met up w cousin.Go bugis(:

SHOPPING ; CRAPPING and lots of fun.

Went home late.Tired after shopping,then midnight crapped again.

Then started camwhoring again.

Halfway using the computer my mother come chase me sleep.At 12midnight somemore.Ever seen anyone come for stayover and you sleep early? LOL

At seoul garden

CAMWHORING SESSION!!!
Trying to act geek or retard.Dont rly look like.

C'mon im not this fat okays.Your eyes are playing tricks on you.

Playing w the deodorant.

(i think first time i in picture look so natural)*claps*

Spent hundred over bucks!Gonna be broke soon.Need a job again.Cant get enough of shopping.Which girl wouldn't like shopping? SIGH;everybody's gone clubbing-.- and im left to heal my wounds.

2009-12-08T18:35:00.000-08:00

You asked me how much i could give.But i rly dont know.If i can choose i'll give everything.
Everytime i hear my blogsong i rmb him.
The last thing i want to hear that its over.
Does crying everyday even help?
Btw panadol sucks,horrible painkillers.
why must things end up in this way after we went thru so many things?
I cant think properly now.
I afraid once i say the wrong thing you'll be gone forever.
you wanna know why my url is fidellity hearts?
Cause fidellity hearts is how much i love you.
Sigh,y'knw i cant live w/o you.You're all i need.All those pretence,i dont want it.I just want you to be happy

I rmb how much i cried on monday cause i couldn't find the card you gave me & after awhile of crying finally i saw the card.I think annabel got irritated cause i treated it so importantly.

2009-12-07T01:55:00.000-08:00

I know you'll never see this.
But just do what you think is right now.
I will understand but can you dont let go of it please?
Feeling so horrible now.Worst than dying.
Talk to weesiang in msn cause he ask me to,he dont want reply(middlefinger)

Went SSC with Annabel,Shihui&weesiang.
Go eat ajisen cause its like $1 only.
At first annabel queueing only then we join in.
Those aunty behind keep complaining say people cut queue.
After awhile they also cut.act nice in front of ssc ppl-.-
Got nails done^^

2009-12-06T01:26:00.000-08:00

DO you still me love me.
Does tears still help?
Will your love still come back?
Does taking panadol help?Helping me cure the heartbreak.
Im crying out hard but you never came to me.
Will me doing anything help?
You never knew tht feeling im feeling now.
im feeling lost,i feel worst than dying,my hair is in a mess.
Baby dont walk away,i'll do anything.
If i die,will that give me a chance to see you again?:D hope so
Will you be back baby?
I cant live w/o you.y'knw how im feeling now?total heartbreak.
I cry out loud but you never came beside me.
Life is meaningless.Whats me living here on earth?):

I'm already waking up.Or have I been asleep too long.Losing you is hard enoughNot knowing anything was wrong

2009-12-03T16:07:00.001-08:00

Guess this time its Goodbye.

Even i say so,my heart wont let me do so.

2009-12-01T23:27:00.000-08:00

Every tears will have a story behind it,
So sick and tired of all this pretence all this while.

I really dont have the mood to post nowadays.

Not like siauxin almost everyday post.

Anw I love Guangzhou's cold weather.

Lazy to post up the peek-tures :D sorry

People remember me when im gone to e2 kk.

Still rmb how we shouted across the class,how i got scolded,how teacher only rmb my 'huh' ,how i ran about the class,how we went mad together when there was no teacher,how we slacked at broadway and east park.

&&&of course annabel,shihui,siauxin and peizhen.

Gonna miss you people lots and lots(L)

Do you rmb the day that we first meet,i wasn't looking for anything.

You asked if i had a man,said no and been amazing ever since.

Your everything I need and more.I never want too let you go.Baby boy I love ya

Cause yes its you i love.

qiaomin,

Thanks girl for being always with me.Even though we were not close for very long but you're always there for me.Maybe im just lying to myself that im okay yesterday but now im rly fine okays.next time go out we have h2h talk kk.Dont worry for me.As long as i got him its okay(:

2009-12-01T00:25:00.000-08:00

Overdue pictures for Class Gathering.

Lazy to say anything.

Let the pictures do the talking kk.

I miss those times there.

Can we like have another class outing in december?

Im leaving e1 alr ):

Miss me yea people ! (L)

2009-11-30T00:32:00.001-08:00

HELLO PEOPLE ;
Backkk. Sorry tried to find presents but there's like really nothing nice to buy for you.
Unless clothes.or for annabel bikini! hahahah
I miss alot alot people kk.Walked all the streets finding presents
Guessed no one miss me?

I guess im no longer that impt to you anymore.No longer in your heart.took things in my stride.I cant find the reason to trust you anymore.I should have been more auto right?You once told me you loved me the most but now?i cant feel it.I knew i shouldn't doubt you i should have trusted you.Give me that reason then.